So, I'm gonna break the thing I said on the previous post, about not writing for awhile. As literally as the title can be, I am in a panic mode, I might not look panicked but I am a 110% panicking. This is basically the reason why I urged back into writing.
I need a sanctum, a place to meditate and reflect my actions or in this case my mind.
Deadlines are growing nearer to me and as I put more deadlines toward myself as a motivation, it insteads makes it hard for me to move further from my current position. I am facing my finals tomorrow and for the next two days. My thesis deadline is about 4 days afterwards. So, to say it harshly: I am fucked up. IF, I dont finish my thesis before going to Singapore this Christmas.
Why did it end up to be like this? If there's gonna be some finger-pointing, it should be pointed to me. This is all due to my laziness, tardiness, and the role of moral hazardness in being so seductive.
No matter how cliché this sounds but personally, graduating this semester would be a dream come true. This proves that I can be independent and I could achieve anything if I put my heart and soul in it.
But, I need a reality check. I have a deadline of 1 week, which in this case also means my thesis should be ready for evaluation within a week. For this I do not hold any control and to say the truth, I don't know whether my thesis mentor knows anything about these deadlines.
So, here's what's gonna happen. I am gonna pray so this all go well. Meanwhile, I try to do my best for the finals and complete my thesis.
Thank you for your support.
Cheerios.
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